About Me
- Disrepaired
- My body disgusts me, I avoid mirrors like the plague and my physical disabillities prevent me from taking any real action to change my fatty boom boom shape. I'm hoping if I lose enough weight I will be able to tone up gradually and maybe even get surgery. For now I am determined not to let myself keep climbing up the scales like I have in the past 8 months. I don't care if it hurts. I want to have control; I want a perfect body. I want a perfect soul.
Monday 2 November 2009
I feel much better about myself now that I am restricting again.
Before me and my ex split up I had completely overcome the guilty feeling I had when eating. Then when he was gone and I started comfort eating I felt terrible about myself constantly. Now I feel like food isn't taking over me or ruling my life. I'm not dashing off to buy chocolate and junk anymore and making better choices again.
Today's chart:
I've also started a cross stich kit that my sister gave me on the weekend. It is a mammoth task with no less than 52000 stitches but I enjoy the challenge and it keeps me occupied. So no more lying around crying for hours thus far.
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